Over at Shooting Suburbia is part two of "Furlough weekend. Over here is an introspective blog post about the man behind Cedar's Mountain.
Briefly continuing on a theme, Friday's post about blogs riding off into the sunset forced a small seed of an idea to germinate, which in turn blossomed from the fertilizer of the comments that were thoughtfully spread out across the landscape of Cedar's Mountain.
No, this isn't a goodbye post. I worked too damn hard to build this blog up to where everyone from coast to coast to border to border and overseas enjoys my little slice, however small, on the world around me, to simply pack up and go elsewhere.
Now where was I? Oh yes, now I remember.
Anyways, everyone's thoughtful comments got me to thinking about my blog in general and my ability to write original blog posts.
For the first couple of years (2008-09) it was ridiculously easy to write fresh and original stuff for my blog. I mean, it got to the point where the volume of my output was so great that for about a solid six months I had at least two weeks of posts at any given time scheduled for posting.
But as I started going into my 3rd year of blogging (2010), the ability to write fresh and original blog posts got to be a little harder to do.
Even when I cut down my schedule from every other day (which was punishing to say the least) to a M-W-F; closed one blog and opened another that wasn't as demanding as this one or the one I closed, it still became, for long periods of time, a battle to come up with quality posts that met my exacting standards for written material.
Which brings us to today.
The tail end of 2010 has brought us full circle, in that once again we are struggling to come up with fresh and original material to write. I mentioned in one of my comments that I take it as a victory whenever I can come up with a weeks worth of posts for Cedar's Mountain.
You may laugh over that particular comment, but the truth of the matter is that comment, along with the one saying that I'm living on borrowed time with this blog, is about as poignant as a comment you will ever see me make about my blogging.
To be honest with everyone, there is simply nothing in my background that would've forecast the fact that I would be sitting here some 29 1/2 months later writing my 547th post for Cedar's Mountain nor for that matter some 48 months after I first began writing in December 2005 trying to write a synopsis for a novel that I am quite proud of.
I'm not sure what I'm trying to say here, or even what the purpose of this post is, but maybe the answer can be found in the title of the post, which you might recognize if you were a fan of late 70's synth pop, specifically Alan Parsons.
In any event, I do hope that this post gets you to think, not only about yourself and your blogging abilities, but about other bloggers who may be trying to find that second or third wind or listening to that internal voice telling them that they need to keep on doing what they're doing.
Who knows, maybe you're facing the same questions and self-doubts about your blog and your blogging ability (like me) and you're too afraid to face the realization that maybe, just maybe, you need to regroup and recalibrate.
Am I afraid to face that realization?
It's been a long difficult road this year and I don't see it getting any easier. Only time will tell whether or not that particular realization will come true.
For my sake, I certainly hope not.